On a foundtional note...

Have you listened to Chris Tomlin's "God of This City", Tim Hughes "Everything", David Crowder "How He Loves", Matthew West "More", or Matthew West "The Center" recently. If not, you're probably way to busy to pull them up, but they're the songs that have been getting me through these last couple weeks. Because when I listen to them, they refocus me and remind me that God has purpose and presence wherever I am and wherever the people I love are and that I want to want to be apart of His will for wherever I am. And when, wherever I am or whatever I am doing is really getting to me, they remind me that I am loved so completely by the Almighty God and He loves me perfectly and that I'm not just "here" going through "all of this" because He wants to be mean to me and because he can, but because He is making me into the amazing person that He created me to be. And, it hurts sometimes, but it's like Vince Lombardi said, it's about "doing what you don't want to do, in order to achieve what you've always wanted to achieve." I want to be the person God created me to be, and it might suck sometimes getting there -- but, it's totally worth it.